blessings

This week I have a received an much needed answer to prayer. Having the weight of the problem lifted off my shoulders had been wonderful. The minute I received the much needed news it seemed as if the world was shinning that much brighter. The birds were singing that much louder and the air smelled that much sweeter.

It's funny how news can change your outlook on life. I quickly thought of all my blessings and gave a much needed prayer of thanks. My life, though crazy and complicated is wonderful and perfect. Things are as they should be and I'm secure in that knowledge.

Trust in a Heavenly Fathers will is extremely hard for me to do. even though I am NOT a control freak...when it come to his will or mine...I kinda become one. It's hard for my human eyes to see "all" that my father in heaven sees. But though i may do his will "kicking and screaming" i DO it in the end.

I know he can make my weaknesses strong...as there is many , and I know i can do anything with his help...i"m just thankful that this time...my will was his will!!!!

Kristen

new year going well....

I'm excited to say that we are going into the third week of January and I"m not yelling!!! Okay, well sometimes, but I've toned it down A LOT, says my son. I think the warm sunny weather has been helping. I love winter, snow and the rain...but when we have a week of 80 degree weather i realize how much my body and mood crave the sun!

Every morning I've heard the birds chirping away and it almost even smells like summer! My kids have played outside a lot which doesn't happen when it's cold and rainy. Though soon I will get sick of the hot sun and enjoying it now!

My only wish would be that our pool was warm enough...that would keep the kids busy for hours!!!

kristen

A New Year....

I'm going to try really hard to be more consistent in writing this blog so that hopefully at the end of the year I can print it out and have a great memory book. We will see how that goes. Life is going well. 2010 was a great year. Girls got bigger, and easier in some respects, Coby had a great time in school and sports, things were ...well just great!

I can only hope that this year is just as good. So far it has been...but then again it is only January 11th! I'm looking forward to summer vacations, coby's basketball games and the girls turning 4 years old. I pray every day that my mind stays sane while i raise these kids! I don't know how others do it? How do some mothers seem to have it all together? I used to believe that i was a person with lots of patience...these kids have taught me differently. I may SEEM to have patience because i don't "freak" out often...but inside I'm boiling!

Needless to say, 2011 will be a year for me to work on my "anger". When I asked Coby how i could be a better mother this year he said. "Not to yell so much"! WHAT! I yell a lot? i thought. To be truthful, I had noticed over the past few months that the tone of my voice was getting higher and higher...but i justified it because my girls are so darn noisy and scream sooo much that I have to "yell' to get their attention.

But Coby is right. I do not want to be remembered as a mother who yelled all the time. So the very next day I hit the Temple! I figured it was a good place to start. And you know what? I didn't yell for three straight days!!! Yea! ....I did last night though :( But at least i am aware of it and i am determined to work on it all year long.!

Here's to becoming a "soft spoken" parent...well at least not a yeller! Ha:)( that's not even a word, i know...but it works for me)

kristen